Sigur ros

I'm leaving for McCall tomorrow, yet again around the same time as last year. It's not as repetative as some might think although this will be my fourth summer doing this. It's strange though, I'm somewhat torn. I want to leave, I always have. I have a travelers soul but my heart sometimes gets in the way of my ambition. I am going to miss this so much. This; meaning today, yesterday, just being here. I can't stand leaving all the people ive fallen in love with over the past 6 months. I don't want to leave the comfort of friendship. I think about all the days ive spent just laughing and the nights filled, always, with peace. I wonder how many moments just like these, that i'll be missing out on.

These moments, they will blur to fond memories before long, but no matter where this takes us. Forgetting what happens next and embracing the experiences i've been given, they mean the world to me.

It's so hard to emplain how amazingly painful life can be, and how gloriously wonderful it is, all at the same time.