Long day.

I can't wake up to my alarm anymore, I realized this the past few weeks. It's frustrating.

Today started out... well... late.
I hung out in Boise for a while before I had to work but due to my late awakening I only had about 3 hours.

I saw a very handsome guy walk into Dawson's earlier today, he walked right in and gave me a killer smile. I'm not going to toot my own horn but he kept staring at me. And out of all the empty seats around, he just happened to sit at the table across from mine. For at least an hour he sat at his table on his laptop, looking at me. While I sat at my table on my laptop fully aware of it all. The majority of the time I wondered if he was going to get up and come strike up conversation with me. The truth is, somehow I knew he wasn't going to do that at all, I just wished he was going to. He just finished his drink, packed up his stuff and walked out. To be honest, I was a little bummed but at the same time I was unimpressed.

Is it wrong to be troubled by this? Not about this guy or situation in particular, but about the whole principle. I've seen this happen so many times. It's as if men have lost their ability to be men. The entire and very simple act of persuing, flirting, or even asking someone out on a date has almost completely dissapeared from our everyday lives. Maybe i've just gone a little nuts but what girl in their right mind goes to a public place surrounded by potentionally great guys, and hopes none of them come up to her.

I never go anywhere intentionally to skope out for cute guys, or do all that I can to get one to come up to me, but that doesn't mean I'm going to turn down the oportunity. However, that oportunity that I would love to take rarely ever comes. Call me old fashioned if you want, but I'm not the kind of girl that goes up to a guy. I wait and see if he likes me enough to come and introduce himself. Maybe that's my problem, I'm not agressive like most women now days.

I've had many of my guy friends come to me and say they like a certain person. Once I mention that they should go talk to her or ask her out, they switch into insecure mode. They act as though they've already been turned down or dumpped before they ever get the chance to even try. When did guys become so scared and insecure? The perks of being young and alive have really started to drop. It's not like it used to be. It's too serious now, too stressfull.

Where did the fun go?