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Umbrellas

I sat in the sun today, it was warm but the breeze, the breeze was perfect. My future is a mystery and I have absolutely no control. I'm smiling though, knowing that life is so much better unplanned. I'm lifting my hands to the heavens and He whispers to me "everything will be okay." I'm never going to give up on my dreams, I just have to learn to live them one day at a time. I get ahead of myself often, try to pave the way for journeys I'm not even prepared for yet. I WILL do what has been promised to me.

I'm letting go.

Oh RAIN

Wow, currently in my cabin during a huge thunder storm! The rain is falling in sheets against the wood of the cabin and the sound of thunder makes my heart jump... I love it.

I went on a Kayak adventure about an hour ago, I went to the middle of the lake and just sat there watching the clouds form and listening to the distant explosions of thunder. It got closer and I rowed my way back to the dock but by the time I reached it, I was completely soaked. I wasn't in a hurry though. Now the thunder literally sounds as though bombs are going off and a war of water and sky is commencing right outside my door.

Oh goodness, this is what I live for.

Sigur ros

I'm leaving for McCall tomorrow, yet again around the same time as last year. It's not as repetative as some might think although this will be my fourth summer doing this. It's strange though, I'm somewhat torn. I want to leave, I always have. I have a travelers soul but my heart sometimes gets in the way of my ambition. I am going to miss this so much. This; meaning today, yesterday, just being here. I can't stand leaving all the people ive fallen in love with over the past 6 months. I don't want to leave the comfort of friendship. I think about all the days ive spent just laughing and the nights filled, always, with peace. I wonder how many moments just like these, that i'll be missing out on.

These moments, they will blur to fond memories before long, but no matter where this takes us. Forgetting what happens next and embracing the experiences i've been given, they mean the world to me.

It's so hard to emplain how amazingly painful life can be, and how gloriously wonderful it is, all at the same time.

Daphne Loves Derby...

No more silliness. It's not about being angry or bitter. I've gotten hurt too many times to try and fight the obvious. It's not my thing. I'm walking away from possibilities that usually end in heartbreaks. I've decided to stop counting how many corners I'm going to back myself into or how many situations I'm going to embarrass myself out of to understand how to just live and love like everyone else.
I'm not everyone else. I've never been. I fall in love with every new day, but I won't fall in love with someone.

This, I'm sure, is to free me. An attempt to show me that life is so much better than what people settle for.

To think that girls in love fall so hard that all their dreams and desires slip past them. My dreams are stronger than any relationship i've ever had, and they will never fade. Kisses come and go. Desire for each new day to bring adventure and passion, that lasts as long as I'm alive.
What I'm saying is, I'll never settle for less. I'll never be the girl that gives everything up for love.


All this, these are thoughts of the past month put into words. Most people live and know they were born to do something or be someone. I was born to write, explore, create, and share kindness with the world. Show the world how beautiful life is.

I bought an R.V. about a week ago. I have the biggest life ahead of me.... I'm too giddy to realize what or who I might be missing out on.

McCall...

Here I am, in my cabin.

I realized just yesterday the reason why I love it here so much. While standing on the dock down by the beautiful stretch of lake surrounding me, it's the closest I can come to being next to the ocean. It brushes against freedom and perfection at the same time. Rare.

I am happiest when I'm near water. I'm the best version of myself when I'm alone.

Back to Boise tomorrow...

Live and learn

It has been awhile, but though I don't continuously sign in online I never stop writing.

I wrote something a few weeks ago, on my phone. Thank goodness for notepad.

-Oh Lord, this day is beyond beautiful. It is true we can learn something new everyday. Whether it be an experience, a feeling, or an emotion. You can even learn something new that really isn't new at all. I sat on a roof today. Josiah next to me playing melodies I hadn't heard before, so lovely, so serene. The music swayed through me, the wind made everything around us come to life. The sun warmed our bare skin and the entire moment was perfect. If its anything I've learned today, it's that no mater what happens in the future, it's the moments like this, the here and now that mean the most. Memories make life worth living. Especially moments like this.-

I don't ever want to forget that. I won't go a day without thanking God for all the beautiful people in my life, and all the memories from my wonderful existence.